bittersweet

I only have two weeks left in this beautiful place!

I will surely miss almost everything.

I will miss all the now familiars.

My family, car, my jobs, my coworkers, the roads I drive every day, getting meals for under three dollars/free, the sweet, sugary smell of where I work, my cool ward and super friendly people, and all the experiences that I have built upon.

I guess this is the way it goes in life.

Sometimes we think an experience in life will not be good.
We think that we are better off with the familiar.
But, the unfamiliar has helped me to grow.
Into a new person.

Into a more refined Mallory.

More brave, myself, and willing to fight for me.

I feel so far away from my future.


As if I am standing on the shore and my future lies on the horizon, miles away.

Really, it's around the corner.
Maybe holding my hand.

The past is gone.
And I'm learning to better recognize it.

I can't wish for a present from the past
and expect to find it dropped on my doorstep in a cute little box.

I look forward to the future.
My future.

If I am holding my future's hand,

then my past is my shadow.

Still a part of me.


But tomorrow is a new day.

And I feel revived, revitalized and alive with all my purpose.

and my happiness.

Sometimes, I feel as if I am glowing with heart.

I feel so much love in my heart.

Thank you, Heavenly Father.


Almost goodbye, Idaho.

But never a forever goodbye.

Three months ago.

I get to see all my familia soon, and that lil man ^ <3 p="p">