I have been training to become a faster and better swimmer for the past forever. I commit myself to the sport and work hard at practice. But somehow, I can't seem to drop enough time in my events. I've cried way too much about failure so I just keep swallowing. It stops tears. Also, I am not going to give up. Because my mom says that someday, it'll happen. And it will be awesome. And I guess a part of me is scared that it won't ever. Because it's my dream. Is it naive to think that it will happen, still? I mean, I have been swimming for six years. When is it supposed to happen?
I remember my mom would tell me in middle school that in the following years I would grow boobies and get hips. Except in a more general way, that I would grow bigger and get more muscle and not be so scrawny. Well...I waited for years. It didn't happen till around high school. And I kept telling my mom: "I know...you told me this last year. It's not happening yet."
I don't know. Maybe I'll be like Dara Torres and hit my peak as an older adult. But she was also oober fast as a 14 year old. And I'm past that age. Maybe I am just hoping for too much. Maybe swimming isn't my sport. Even though I sorta believe somewhere, deep down, that I have potential.
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You are a great swimmer and you still have potential to continue to do even greater swimming. I personallly feel it's the doubt thats hiding somewhere in your being and unfortunately doubt is like a lead weight to a swimmer! So, findnthat doubt and kill it dead! Then...you'll swim oober fast!
Love,
Mom...who loves you more than anything and thinks you're the most amazing awesomest most dedicated swimmer ever! Never give uo...never surrender! Doubtwould have you live weighted down like a big slug on the side walk but remember...were gonna find doubt and kill it!!
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